-P A B L O H O N E Y-

YOU can mock or laugh all you want but no matter what,the very few things & human beings that I love,
will always be way better & more beautiful than you and the things you love.

"And Islam is PERFECT. Muslims are NOT. Nor are ANY humans or their ideas or institutions or politics. Perfection is a quality of God alone."
-Lupe Fiasco-



sometimes, when I read back what I wrote and think back about the things that I've done,they make me wanna hurrrrrl.

In the name of Allah the Beneficent the Merciful.

O Allah! I seek forgiveness of all those sins of which You have knowledge of either it is of my good deeds or evil deeds, knowledge of my whole life, or from first to last, knowingly or unknowingly or the knowledge of my sins which I have erred erroneously whether little or great, big or small, old and new, secret or open and those sins of which I am guilty of. And I ask forgiveness of You and request You to send blessings on Mohammad and the progeny of Mohammed and forgive all my excuses which I have done on Your creation and is in Your knowledge because their rights are incumbent on me and I am responsible of it.

It is reported in As-Sahih (Al-Bukhari) from Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with him) that Allah's Messenger Prophet Muhammad(May the peace and blessing of Allah be upon him) said: ­

"None of you should say: 'O Allah, forgive me if You wish; O Allah, be Merciful to me if You wish; but he should always appeal to Allah with determination, for nobody can force Allah to do something against His Will."

Muslim reports:

"One should appeal to Allah with firm determination for nothing is too much for, or beyond Allah."


I ♥ U

You say: "It's impossible"
Allah says: All things are possible
You say: "I'm too tired"
Allah says: I will give you rest
You say: "I can't go on"
Allah says: My grace is sufficient
You say: "I can't figure things out"
Allah says: I will direct your steps
You say: "I can't do it"
Allah says: You can do all things
You say: "I'm not able"
Allah says: I am able
You say: "It's not worth it"
Allah says: It will be worth it
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
Allah says: I FORGIVE YOU
You say: "I can't manage"
Allah says: I will supply all your needs
You say: "I'm afraid"
Allah says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
Allah says: Cast all your cares on ME
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
Allah says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
Allah says: I give you wisdom
You say: "I feel all alone"
Allah says: I will never leave you or forsake you
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
Allah says: I love you



AWAY, like it or not. please.
Fortunately,feelings, they come and go.

So glad my heart's elastic


ID card er~

yeay! just got a new ID card and......
I added my very first graphic conteng moustache! gune paint jer. ( nada iklan gune shampoo je) ~ sounds batak =,=


mechanics;final exam

I just did my mechanics paper. Light, wave and electron was better.
I didn't study. 'nuff said.

But I'm getting better at fighting the future,
"Someday you'll be fine.."
Yes, I'll be just fine.


I've got to find the strength

to say it's okay.
there have been so many things happen lately.
today, I wish I had never existed.


Nottingham Uni.

of Malaysia! kekekeke.. Alhamdulillah. I guess this is where I meant to be. well, yesterday I got the letter from JPA and the registration day will be on the 9thJuly which means I still got another less than two weeks to spend at home and enjoy fangirling, watching YT and of course reading all the latest news about the idols in forums. I'm feeling excited because finally it's time for me to continue learning and meeting new friends but at the same time I feel like I'm not ready to be there. I mean, not yet. but perhaps I'll be ok.hee ^^

InsyaAllah if everything goes well I'll continue taking my degree in chemical engineering. wish me luck!! ^^


like tyco

I was about to eat my dinner in peace.unfortunately, something happen.
mom put something inside my plate.something that I don't want to eat.
and now, my appetite has gone and I'm not going to eat.

err...I mean, not now.hehe :D

Tyco! you always skip dinner.
It's not good! I want you to EAT & be healthy!
[TOP pon mkn byk nasi hokayh]
hihihi..go tyco! muahh ^^


A message.

the salty it hurts my eyes.

So verily, with the hardship, there is relief.
Verily, with the hardship, there is relief. [94:5-6]

my room is a mess but I like it that way and here I am, sipping my piping hot milo and typing at the same time.



are the greatest person of all time! and cumai will ALWAYS them! :)

Jazakallah for the Islamic upbringing
Teaching me to refrain from sinning

Showing me right from wrong
Tarbiyyah provided all along

Saving me from doing misdeeds
Guiding me to increase good deeds

Instilling in me the desire to seek Allahs pleasure
Mum and Dad, what you did for me I cannot measure.

Oh, Allah, Look after my parents as they looked after me*
My Lord, make Jannah for them Your decree.

from:Ahmed's World of ISLAM

*O Allah,forgive me,my parents and my fellow Muslims in the Hereafter. O Allah, have mercy on them as they have brought me up with love from childhood.

I gave mom a card a week after mother's day to surprise her but mcm biasa mak xde la se-surprise mne Unless it's some kind of unusual present like a Donkey?! hee hoo..and eep! father's day is coming this June,so I'm going to buy ayah a card too and perhaps he'll be happy to receive a camel teddy..wee~ ^^


She is Mine ♥

Recently I’ve posted a card to my precious EBA;a fifth year medical student in Otago Uni. because she was complaining that she has become sort of lazy these days! So the purpose of sending the card was to show off my support and encouragement for her to be strong..And I know that she must've been studying hard for her examinations,drinking coffee to make her eyes wide open during the night to finish up tonnes of work and having to deal with sick people is not easy.But you know that we always pray for you and we couldn’t wait for you to graduate next year so there’ll be three doctors in the family.wee~so here’s a picture of my card that she captured and put it in her blog err eba, you might be wondering why I never put your blog's link in my YOSH site.well, it's simply because you're mine..heheheh :DD


As you can see above, the message in my card is quite simple. Well if you have read my previous entry, I've stated that I'm not good in writing and it's true. Eba said that I should read a lot of books to know a lot of words but *sigh. Maybe I should start reading today.hehe. I'm feeling like this because Eba always fill her cards with words that makes me feel very very blessed with love and even her simple notes on a piece of paper can make my eyes teary. I guess this will be the longest writing I ever write to her or perhaps one day I'll be able to write something way better than this one :D

EBA;Super Junior 1st Asia Tour,Seoul '09

I have four big sisters and since I'm the youngest, I've received lots of love from them but I can say that Eba would be my favourite sister ♥ In fact,the whole family knows that we're very close and One thing you should know about her is that she is very strong and can fight with a Lion! hoheeho [bunyi donkey yg cumai naek, eba!] hehe..

Eba and I started to get close when I was 10 and we've become closer since then.You see, eba can sometimes understand me better than anyone else can. She will be the one besides me through my ups and downs and comforts me with words which are much more worth than diamonds.yosh!Besides, she often shows me how to navigate the way through some of the more difficult areas of growing up and what I like the most is that we always share the same interest and thoughts that she even calls me her ever precious braintwin.hihi. Oh, we may share the same thoughts but of course we definitely don't act the same way and that is why we are BRAINtwin.hmm.. She is like 10 times more organized,more mature,more powerful,more hardworking,more responsible,NOT messy and she doesn't sleep like me.OH I sleep A LOT. kekeke ;)

Being with eba is like riding a roller coaster,chatting with her before going to bed is like having an ice-cream and, and maybe sometimes we fight over simple things and not a single about it is alright but hey, I wouldn't ever change her for another sister.NEVER! and she doesn't have to be perfect to become my coolest+SUPER awesome sister because I love her in every single little way. Ow I couldn't picture what my life would be like without her and I just couldn't imagine US having our own family. maybe we have to alter our conversation and lessen our Fangirly Spazzing oh no! HA-HA. I have a LOT to say but it'll be a long story to tell so to make it short I just have to say that my sister is my bestfriend that I will keep forever.She is a blessing,she is my other half and with her I am whole ♥

We started giving each other cards and stuff when I was 13 and she gave me A LOT of them since then. Sometimes we just gave each other a simple note or having the same things for example the same cartoon pens,keychains,SUJU SUPER SHOW tshirts! ♥ & etc etc & to me that means a lot. I treasure and keep them safe in my magical super powerful box.I also gave her A FEW [psst;i ain't got no money :(] cards and gifts (you are purrrfect ^^;only eba knows about this..hihi).

So here I'd like to include our journal books.Mine is on the right side.It's one of the gift from eba. She bought this and decorated them on her own and she wrote a special note inside my journal book. CLICK picture to enlarge :)



taggo tanggo tegoshi ;D

I've deleted the content of this post.
and I was thinking about tyco&my friends when I wrote about it a few months ago.



Some of my earliest memories of TV are of watching Macaulay Culkin in Home Alone,My Girl and Richie Rich. He's cute but not anymore.I've edditted this post. I don't know why I did this. You don't know either.


First entry

List random facts about yourself

1. I am obsessed with random things
2. I ♥ my family&friends
3. I spend a LOT of time on the internet
4. I like being at home
5. I can cook maggi
6. I wish that I can go to the past
7. I sleep a LOT.I am lazy
8. I am a night person
9. I talk a lot but only to my loved ones
10. I am emotional.I cry easily
11. I like fantasy dreams and imagination
12. I like stars
13. I dont hate people.just being indifferent

HELLO oh blog! :)